I would love to hear your story, CM. I am always looking to understand why people convince themselves that unassisted coitus remaining sub-par makes the slightest sense for a sentient race. I have always wanted to understand why the one act of sex that is essential for any race to continue to survive was accepted in its animal's rendition without improvement.

In fact, I'll tell you my story. In my youth, in between bouts of disappointing a woman during coitus, I depended on masturbation. I depended on masturbation, more and more, as it began to sink in that coitus was not satisfactory. Masturbation seemed as good as any alternative anyone else was indulging in and I wanted to understand why coitus remained a miserable alternative. It wasn't a matter of alternatives having any negative connotations. Any alternative that does not include violence or domination for two people to achieve mutual pleasure is better than not and fine with me. It was just that I could not understand why a sentient race could not overcome an animal's limitations entirely when it comes to coitus. It turns out I was right. I now understand that the limitations are only based on animal instincts that a stupoured animal has no choice but to endure. A sentient creature has every reason to expect more.

Most baffling was that every woman would smile like everything was alright after a bout of lousy coitus. I figured that one out after awhile. Women have learned to cringe at the demented reaction of men being told they are not up to snuff. I guess, also, any heterosexual woman has accepted that she is not going to get anything better when it comes to coitus. I realized this after watching two different women cringe and essentially freak out when they did something 'wrong' (not having anything to do with sex) and expecting me to react as my male progenitor would have, by losing his shit.

Applying alternative methods didn't even come into consideration. I was completely baffled by the inability to make coitus into a loving event. I guess I was always certain that coitus should be a loving event for any sentient being that chooses to indulge in it and I am not saying that every human will choose to do so. I always really, really wanted to indulge in it in a way that suited a human, myself. It just took me most of a lifetime to figure out why I was right. The insane deep south U.S. religious upbringing left a lot of baggage to overcome. Things like "sex is cursed" and, as a derivative, "the body is cursed".

I finally realized, as I explain in fifteen books and the blog link below, that it is nothing more than a blockage set up millennia ago that stopped us for three millennia from even considering that coitus can be a loving event and exploring the consideration to find that it does not need to remain the awful rendition that an animal must endure.

Also, I am not one to hunt and peck. When I finally realized what was going on, I wanted to understand what was going on in detail because I was not just trying to make it a loving event just for myself but for anyone that desired to indulge in coitus. I know a few men that have figured it out for themselves. They just could never articulate very well how they did it. Probably mostly because no one wanted to hear it and they didn't understand it to the depth that I finally do. Any man that chooses to indulge in coitus has no reason to accept the animal's rendition that does not suit a human. Most importantly, no one ever realized what an awful effect it has on humanity to not achieve a crucial aspect of love that a sentient race has every reason to expect. I'm just glad I finally proved it to myself before I reached an age that I couldn't. I'm not sure I will ever be able to convince anyone else but I keep trying.